The red headed left handed geist
Always in motion caught in a fear
If she could only let her hair down
Ever in motion to the wind
With a phonal delivery
Paralleling a Cusack
Always peering from the side of her glasses
Swiping the hair from her face
Mouth pursed somewhere between
A smile or a frown in place
What is this anxiety that plagues you
Why are you so closed to the outside world
Arms crossed in a way to hug and comfort yourself
Or is it a wall, a defense to repel the external
Closed off to cut off your own swath in the world
Always the first called upon
Always the first to leave
Filling your mind with knowledge
Is it to fill an empty heart
Or is this what makes you feel real
Somewhat less like the geist
To give you a foundation
To keep your back straight
And let you walk among and along
In the world of the real boys and girls
Author: Mensch
Lust
You’ve found your arms tied behind your back
In a way that you’ve always fantasized
Yet here you are in it questioning
If this is really what you envisioned
These thoughts wash away as his teeth find their way
To the veins running up your neck
The blood in flow bursting to show
In the form of an abuse to bestow
His dominance that’s frustrating you
In every way you want it to
So you bite your lip and break eye conact
Turn your head away in a way to tease
Betraying your inner contention outwardly
But at the last moment you lift your eyes
Just enough to confirm your consent
For what in the rest of this night lies
The curve of your hips and lips
Are all that can be made out in this light
Though he’s not using his eyes to find
All the places you never knew that you
Always wanted to be touched, kissed, loved
Left only to close your eyes and take it in with a shudder
His hand has found its way to cradle your face
Gently holding you to keep his gaze
Slowly drawing you in so near
Firmly pulling you by the ear
Until slowly your lips meet
A scene so intimate you don’t believe it
You’re floating in this you’re gloating
To this scene you’ve submitted
Yourself to the throes of that which will
Hold in his hands all the control
Over the night this domination
Though you didn’t know it he was slowly leading you
Through that threshold only ever read, seen or dreamed
Still locked at the lips and making your way
You hear the door from behind clasp its latch
Gravity itself spins on its side
Leaving you looking up into the eyes that brought you
To this very moment in time in space, his face
Lost in it you’re reeling in this carnal weakness
You’ve found your hands above your head bound
By the strength of this beast reveling in his feast
And yourself transformed as some lycanthrope
Letting yourself loose to be finally free
Into his eyes you drink this in with a wry grin
He matches your smile and gaze through the musty haze
As though he knows exactly just what’s in your head
As if he could predict where your purpose lies
In a moment like blinding lightning
You throw all your effort up with a twist
To turn the power tipping the scales in your favor
Now it’s you looking down from the mount
You’ve got his hands shackled overhead
For a moment his body lurches in resistance
Your hair in streams flowing to his chest
You move in slowly to ravage and reep
Relishing in the rewards of ensnaring your prey
Now stuck to obey the will of your way
With this he releases a growl of a chuckle
Snarling your way as his body quakes
From under the pain of your fangs
Your newly found libidinous being
Fully formed in fruition under the full moon
Releasing this bestial lecherous ardor
In waves upon the sands of your newly found pawn
You’re wielding the strings pulling him to your heart’s content
Until you’ve pulled just a little too hard
At that which was the control bar in your hands
Now has crumbled to splinters though you wouldn’t know it
Yeah, you didn’t know it until you found yourself back underneath
Somewhere between animalistic rage and euphoric ecstasy
The wave has come in phase and full tide to crash over
With this, his palm has found its way back to your face
You’ve latched on, hand on wrist, bracing for this high tide
Somehow you’ve found his forearm between your teeth
Biting to pass this pleasure to pain, biding your time
It’s flowing over you into this disembodied state
To a place you never quite thought you’d be
What is this, a man that’s lying next you?
He is the man that brought you through
The threshold into womanhood
Miriam’s Death
Someone recently drew a picture of me
When queried, another claimed it looked like Moses
With this I thought, Moshe Rabbeinu
The one to teach and lead the way
The bridge between us and what’s above
Wandering the wilderness to build
A people worthy of the land
But not without its strife
For he lost his Miriam
And saw only the vision of what’s to be
From afar beside the river Jordan
Have I reached the valley’s depth
I’m not sure I can take anymore
I have been left, dumbed and inept
I am lost in the wilderness
There is no road in sight
To the left or the right
I have tumbled, stumbled and fumbled
With every good thing, WHERE IS MY FIGHT
That which will release me of this blight
Or am I to end up as Avihu and Nadav
With these unforgivable mistakes
Will I be left with death in the desert Negev
Bent to the ground to slither with the snakes
Please may I be given the strength to keep this evil at bay
Something to keep it together all along the way
Miriam’s dead to me
I’ve been in the desert
For so long
Will I reach my land
Will I drink the milk
Will I eat the honey
Am I destined to live
Or will I die
Having only seen from afar
That which I’ve been living for
You really were the backbone
For a people all alone
You were the support
For the one that lead the charge
Without you the well’s run dry
Left in our mouths the taste of bitterness
Leaving a patch of Eden behind
It’s just enough to quench this thirst
You were the support for the boy
Who wanted only to love and care
For the one who would be there
Through the highs and lows
Two Lies
I’ve lost two things that meant most to me
I’ve lost that which kept me smiling bright
Oh G-d, I’ve lost my back
Lost the bone that kept
Me up and so straight
All that’s in my head
All these things I feel
It’s too hard to belate
Oh Love, I’ve lost my mind
Lost the dream that kept
Me and mine alright
Keeping me afloat
Soaring lonely skies
Without a bit of fright
I’ve kept these lies from being mine
Broken what bolsters this rind
Keeping from me these truths
Accepting all that sooths
‘Cause these are the two lies
Of that which pries out our eyes
Infecting our blood with lye
Away from the truth, we shall all shy
These are the two lies
That have kept me breathing
These are the two lies
That have kept me dreaming
Recursion, see Recursion
I’m stuck in this loop
It’s infinitely strange
Recursive in nature
Though it’s not to help
As far as I can tell
It’s here to frustrate
My heart’s contention
In a form of hypertension
Ever it beats to this deceit
And seemingly for the same old story
Another girl needs saving
From her self or her upbringing
Caught in her web she’s spinning
I’m sucking from the bottle her venom
Drinking up all that’s within it
Binding my body and mind in fetters
Pulled by the string the leash
She has but wrapped about her digit
This spiral is winding down
Around the event horizon
Like the tepid water of a toilet bowl
Casting shadows on all that’s alight
Is there an end in sight
To this steady stream of shit
Forcing its way through my veins
Until it’s all I’ve got left
I guess it’s like they say:
To understand it, you must understand it
Yet again I’m lusting for it
The convenience of another fuck
She’s a party girl, she should like me
So just make the most of this
Misused mutual manipulation
Barely walking away bruised to the day
Making your way with a shaken knee
So it will as it ever can be
Now you’re back
Though in this new guise
A new name a new face
The same guile in this smile
You’re but a geist
Of love lost’s past
Here to take heist
Of any joy I’ve amassed
Awoken
I dreamed that you so gently woke me
You woke me with poison down my throat
You were the snake at the foot of my bed
Shedding your skin ashen about
Trying to pierce your way back into my head
But I deflected it, defended against it
In this dreamscape I prevented the worst
Stopped the poison from reaching our hearts
But when I came to I truly woke up
And there you were your blade to my back
With your gums spiked forming some wry smile
And your sharpened tongue envenomed to my ear
I let it in denying what in the night
Was forewarned to be my plight
Now I’m left to the throes of love
Supposedly from above
Thought not but faux pas
Veritably with blodied claws
You left crimson rivers streaming
The proof that you were here
Storming out on me screaming:
“I want you to disappear!”
You sure did betray yourself
In that moment of weakness
Relaying what’s truly within
To be given from you
There’s not much value in it
Doesn’t matter much anyhow
It’s long gone isn’t it
What once could’ve been
The seed that grew was wilted through
Planted in the soot of what came before
Leaving the roots rotten to their core
Here I Am, Here We Are
Here we are you and I
You’ve left me broken and lonely yet again
It’s like I’ll never learn
Left on the floor with all these
Thoughts of what I’ve been
Immature’s a word left for those
Whose swoon is best left ignored
Of your life and all you’ve done I’d have abhored
If not for how great it feels when its peaked
Because of all my interests, at the least, you have piqued
For your sake you fucking fake
I hope theres no heaven and hell
Cause we all know where you’ll dwell
Theres an empty abyss just for you
But I’m the one
Been taken for a fool
And you’re the one
Who thinks we’re ‘cool’
Yeah, I’m the one
Freezing in the pool
‘Cause you’re the one
Stuck in high school
Because here I am and you’re not
Ever gonna come back
I’ll see you ’round sometime
On some other guy’s arm
And you’ll be as you were
On the arm of some other guy
I’m trying to not be bitter and to be your friend
But there’s so much about you I don’t like
Your people eyes, your looks and your lies
The bruises there, between your thighs
All your plies, your sickly guise
I’m done, I’m cutting all our ties
What To Do
What’s there to do
With your father’s possible suicide
And all you can think about
Is the worst night of your life
And that you haven’t dealt at all
With the regrets you’ve kept inside
You’ve given up on yourself
Over this one big mistake
Oh it was so long ago
Why can’t you just let this go
Coming awake to the cityscape
From behind the wheel, your mouth agape
The memories that precede, left to escape
Sobs bundled in tears barely taking shape
It all comes falling down
It comes tumbling to the ground
Then you can’t pick up the pieces
Juggling it ’til life ceases
But you can take solace in this
Your dad’s still got his best friend
The drugs he’s kept so near and dear
Just to drive away the fear
And he still has his girls
Bent to his will at the drop of a bill
Then there’s the girl
You’d always kiss her in the middle of her sentences
With so much effort you peppered her with sweetnesses
Afraid that her next words would lead her astray
From your path you always knew she wouldn’t stay
And then she was gone
You’ve given up your best friend
To this modern modesty
You’ve lost your spine
That which kept you an honest you
What’s there to do
When all that’s left of the best
Are these rogue strands of hair
Pirating from the high seas of the past
Entangling this in knots
Keeping the treasure locked inside
Where you can still smell
The sweat laced nights
Fighting beneath the sheets we’d swell
Forever marked by her playful bites
Oh what is this hell?!
Last Summer
Why’d you have to go and fall
Last Summer, you were so great
It’s the summer, we’re happy
Im blinded by my own disbelief
This ugly haze beset upon my gaze
Soon to be cast to the side
But there’s a smile on my face
Ever to my heart’s content
Why’d you have to go and fall
Springin’ forward, past all this shit
The rocks stuck in your feet
They’re like these stones I’ve grown
So bold with a story to tell
A fever to catch the world on fire
Burn it down ’til theres nothing left
Leaving ashes for the brashest
Why’d you have to go and fall
Into this cold cold winter
This empty bed’s been mocking me
And I’m freezing, as in my nightmares
Cold, lonely and biting my tongue
Biding my time, forever patient
‘Til I’m bled dry from my mouth
You won’t find me limp, cold on the floor
Why’d you have to go and fall
Oh Autumn, we’ve reached rock bottom!
I can see the bags filled with lies under your eyes
This pyre you’ve tried to make of me
It couldn’t even warm your heart
Though I’d love for you to jump right in
But it takes oxygen to burn
And you haven’t come up yet…
Dear Girl,
I’m sorry you lied
I’m sorry I tried
I’m sorry I ever cried
I’m sorry I was willing to bear
All that you did
Just to show that I cared
I’m sorry I was so nice
And easily used
Like the itchy lice
Leaving me bemused
I’m sorry you got me high
And left me to dry
Leaving only a taste
When we could’ve had it all
I’m sorry you could so easily
Belate your feelings for me
Til when you feel the need
“Let’s do something for me.”
Dear Girl,
This is my letter to you
I’m trying to end this rut
To mend this feeling in my gut
And to belate
All these feelings of hate
So, Goodbye…
With feet to the plain
And lead to the brain,
Goodbye…
